It hasn't even been 4 months and my ex boyfriend is already married. Granted he ran back to his ex before me. Yet... I have to wonder if it will ever happen for me? Do I really not want to? Destined not to? Or is my job in the way of it? I am a Flight Attendant, Airline Stewardess, Fly Girl... whatever description you want to use to define me. I am gone from home for days at a time. Yet, I am home for just as many or more. There is some misconceptions about the good and the bad of the job. Yet I have been mostly single since I started my job almost 13 years ago. I don't have a man in every city. Good Lord that would be exhausting. I need my sleep on my overnights. Yes, pilots flirt with us, but most of them are either great guys who love their families, total dorks, or single for a reason... Plus at this point in my career, if I was destined to be with a pilot, it would've happened by now. Dating outside the industry has it complications. Trust.. You have to trust me to be faithful to you when I'm gone. I have to trust you will be faithful to me when I'm gone. If I wanted to have a crazy wild life and party or hook up on my overnights, I would NOT have a boyfriend. I am extremely loyal to those I love. I am 41 years old. I don't want or need games. I don't want to sponsor you. I'm not looking to be sponsored. I want an equal partnership of love and respect. I want the freedom to be me, as I would expect you would as well.
I know I need to have faith that it didn't work out in the past because there is someone special for me. When the time is right. In His time, not mine.... I know there are a lot of things I need to work out in myself before I can be, just be... It's hard work building up your self esteem.
