At what point should you say "uncle" after dating dumbass upon dumbass? After being told your standards are too high, too low, too shallow, too deep, too this, too freaking that? I feel adrift on the sea that is my life. Too tired to look up and see clear skies or the tsunami heading my way.
I want what most everyone wants. To be loved, to be accepted, to be cherished for who I truly am and not try to fit the "mold". It wasn't "right", he wasn't the "one" for you... Oh puh leeze.... Do you think I didn't know that? Didn't see that? I still tried. I still gave my all. Only to be left standing here, dazed, confused, a bit heart broken, and a lot angry that it didn't take yet AGAIN...
I guess I continue down this path of self discovery. The quote I often think of is "sometimes God has to get us alone to do the work in us he wants to do". Apparently God has a lot of work in me to do. Although, personally, I think there are other things he could be working on and just present me with the perfect man for me so he doesn't have to work on me anymore. sigh....
Here I go again on my own....... Did I mention Whitesnake rules?
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